As Someone Told Me Lately

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 02:52:39 GMT

you have a way of coming easily to me
and when you take
you take the very best of me
so I start a fight cause I need to feel something
and you do what you want
cause I'm not what you wanted
what a shame
what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
so just walk away
no use defending words that you will never say
and now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere as cold as you..

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 00:51:04 GMT

"Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful."

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 21:06:01 GMT

When you go through your life and you're 19,
18 years into your life and you're like,
"Shit, am I going to be alone forever?
Am I a son of a bitch?
Am I doomed because of things I've done to never know love?"
For all of that, I'm just searching for humanity.
[Max Bemis]

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 01:10:35 GMT

well screw people around you. do what you want when you want.
dont hide feelings bcuz people around you think something. people around you arent you.
and whatever decision you make if those people around you are FRIENDS they'll understand.

my friend zach is smarter then most people will ever admit.

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 22:10:52 GMT

Photograph Photograph Photograph
Why'd you have to go and take a picture of a life like that?
You aren't new enough.
I give up I give up I give up on you.
Look at you,look at you,look at you.
Pretty boy floating face down in a pond of glue.
You aren't new enough.
We give up, we give up, we give up on all those like you.
I discard all feelings. The stars scar my ceiling.
I won't spare you. I won't spare you.
won't spare you won't spare you won't spare you
I won't spare you. I shall grow and grow. I'll grow

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 01:46:00 GMT

Something I stumbled upon in a facebook note.

"So did you know him?"

"Yes, or... I thought I did once."

"What was he like?"

"He was a nice boy. Very strange, but only in such a way to give him personality. He could be very fun to be with. We'd spend time together, we would do things together. You know, it's funny. I didn't know him very long before I felt like I knew him forever. I sometimes wondered what I would do without him. But I do believe he was troubled."

"Troubled?"

"Oh, not in the way that you think. See, he wasn't ugly but certainly not handsome either, and I do believe he just got used to the idea of never being special. That's one thing that has bothered me for a long time now. He was unique, but was he special? Or just a face in the crowd? He could be both sometimes. Oh, I don't know; it hurts to think of him too much."

"But how did you feel of him?"

"You mean 'did I love him?' No. I thought I might have once or twice, but I didn't, not really. Like I said, he was a very nice boy, nice to be around. But I never loved him."

"So what happened to him?"

"We began to grow distant. Little things at first, but then I hardly ever saw him. And I've never seen him since. He just left one day. It's for the best I suppose."

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 20:18:56 GMT

i see a beautiful city, and brilliant people.
rising from the abyss and, in their struggles
to be truly free, in their triumphs and defeats, through
long, long years to come.

i see the evil of this time, and of the previous time
of which this is the natural birth gradually making expiation
for itself and wearing out.

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 02:36:24 GMT

I was hoping I could tell you this with two feet on the ground
Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun
I know you never meant to do everything you put me through

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 23:51:03 GMT

i met this amazing boy.

and she would throw her life away
to be with him, forever.

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 01:53:27 GMT

It's just for the very first time, I feel wicked.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 00:54:55 GMT

Sometimes I don't even know who I am, and i feel like no one else does either.
It's one of those scary moments when you think.
What if i'm this horrible person deep down inside and I don't even know it?
The truth is we all are capable of being truly horrible people, every single one of us.
No matter how good we think we might be.
But the only way to really know if youre good or bad is look at your intentions.
All those screw ups don't count for nothing if your truly intended for the right thing to happen.
You just have to be okay with the fact that our past does not define us.
Our hearts do

Even though nothing is making any sense in my life right now, i'm very content.
I'm okay with everything wrong, I know things will work out, one thing i've learned is they allways do.

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 14:25:38 GMT

the boy was back from college this weekend.
we had a sleepover last night.
I think i'm finally over him.
however, our slumber party got ruined this morning because...
first, FH gets cancelled.
then, it's back on.
so we all go to the school.
to be told it's cancelled again.
FTL. i'm going the fuck back to bed.
Do you want to fall apart?
I could if you can try to fix what I've undone
Cause I hate what I've become

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 05:04:03 GMT

Turn off your TV
Leave your house
Know your neighbors
Look up when you are walking
Greet people
Sit on your stoop
Plant flowers
Use your library
Play together
Buy from local merchants
Share what you have
Help a lost dog
Take children to the park
Garden together
Support neighborhood schools
Fix it even if you didn't break itSh
Have pot lucks
Honor elders
Pick up litter
Read stories aloud
Dance in the street
Talk to the mail carrier
Listen to the birds
Put up a swing
Help carry something heavy
Barter for your goods
Start a tradition
Ask a question
Hire young people for odd jobs
Organize a block party
Bake extra and share
Ask for help when you need it
Open your shades
Sing together
Share your skills
Take back the night
Turn up the music
Turn down the music
Listen before you react to anger
Mediate a conflict
Seek to understand
Learn from new and uncomfortable angles
Know that no one is silent though many are not heard
Work to change this

i'm a mission, to become a new me. a better me. Starting Now.

Mend a quarrel.
Seek out a forgotten friend.
Dismiss suspicion, and replace it with trust.
Write a love letter.
Share some treasure.
Give a soft answer.
Offer encouragement.
Manifest your loyalty in word and deed.
Keep a promise.
Find the time.
Forgive an enemy.
Listen.
Apologize if you are wrong.
Try to understand.
Flout envy.
Examine your demands on others.
Think first of someone else.
Appreciate.
Be kind; be gentle.
Laugh a little.
Laugh a little more.
Deserve confidence.
Take up arms against malice.
Decry complacency.
Express your gratitude.
Welcome a stranger.
Gladden the heart of a child.
Take pleasure in the beauty
and wonder of the earth.
Speak your love. Speak it again. Speak it still.

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 04:16:14 GMT

these girls; are my life.

Rhs Lady Vikings '007.

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 14:11:06 GMT

it wont let me post images?!?!
this is a sadday.

Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 16:01:25 GMT

"I felt I was on fire, with the things I could have told you. I guess I just assumed that you eventually would ask."
Carpe Diem; it's what i'm feeling today, I'm ready to live; even without you. Seize the day; I've never felt so alive
"and Im not bitter, no it's just Ive passed that point in my life";
I'm completly read to be over you; for good.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 01:27:46 GMT

Then you threw me up against the wall
The city shook to meet our mating call
All the anger and the pain poured forth
The act itself defied the blessed source.

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 00:23:27 GMT

my bestfriend still acts like she's in
middle school. someone save me.

Sometimes I still; Miss you,
I'm Tried Of you being in my head.
Every fucking day.
College ruins lives. LEGIT.

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 19:23:21 GMT

Note to self: TIME TO FIND OUT WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE.

Something I wrote back in January.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 18:42:42 GMT

SPEAK.

The silence engulfs me.
I hate it.
I am alone, it is a unwelcome change.
I have no choice but to face them
all of my fears; I may be alone
but the silence is with me.

I speak. Without making a sound.
Though no one else can.
The Silence is listening.

He is my fear
him judging me is my fear,
not being good enough
not being pretty enough
not being smart enough
not being enough.
I am afraid.
this is why the scilence is my compainion.
It won't speak back.

I spill my soul, all the feeling is gone from my inside.
All the cards are out.
I sit absorbing the scilence.
Wishing for the courage to speak alloud.

When I am allmost at rest.
The silence speaks to me.
at first I am afraid, but then I hear it's message.
It tells me to "open my eyes, see the light.
Speak to him, show him what only the silence has known.
Open your mouth and speak.
your voice is a gift, use it well."

I open my eyes. ready to live.

Just some random thoughts I'm having; some serious, other not.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 17:18:15 GMT

To love and not be loved is emotionally exhausting.
There will ALWAYS be someone you know in the alleyway at Ellen’s.
God is real, with us, strong, awesome and in charge.
Tonsillitis is not in anyway contagious.
Beaches are almost always better once the sun goes down.
If you can’t get a real tattoo, a sharpie one works just fine.
Dollar bowling Sundays are a fantastic invention
Good decisions are getting almost as hard to make as bad ones.
Driving is easy; Parking is hard.
It’s always 5’oclock somewhere.
23 is not a multiple of 3
Some guys really do come out of Saint John’s Straight.
Doubling see-sawing at stage fort usually results in someone getting hurt.
Regardless of your age, pushing people over is most of the time fun.
If it’s a jeep thing, you never will really ever understand.
You should ALWAYS keep your pants on in public, especially in places like train stations.
Your parents aren’t nearly as oblivious as you may think.
Teeth are not allowed to be shown in passport photos.
Our troubling kind is alive with the glory of love.
In Danvers, You can always go to the park after dark, and smoke that tumbleweed,
Do not pity the dead, pity the living, and, above all pity those who live without love.
Sometimes getting around world takes more than 30 days.
Beer pong is a fantastic game, no matter how many times you lose.
Meevus and But head are truly a fantastic team.
Hey, hey you, you Avril Lavigne doesn’t like your girlfriend.
Jonah was a prophet, but he really never got it.
As you get older, you don’t actually get more mature, you just get better at pretending.
Many people say age is just a number, few people actually mean it.
Graduating high school, actually does take effort.
Everyone needs a cuddle buddy.
Fighting is nothing but a waste of time.
299 Spartans get killed in the movie 300
All you really ever need is a few good friends.
Even the nicest boys, can be assholes underneath it all.
Heartbreak hurts.
Even though I don’t think they’ll ever go to war, Australia has an army,
Biffle Biffle’s are really FO LYFE.
It doesn’t take an eagle scout to build a fire, but having one around is always handy.
There’s nothing better than a good hug.
Chase your Dreams.
The best part of believing, isn’t the lies.
No matter who you are, and what you do, there will always be someone out there who just can’t stand you.

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 05:00:30 GMT

i have this overwhelming frustration.

i think i might love this boy.
and even though alot of my friends don't think so.
i think he's cute.
He's not an athlete or a super genius. .
Even though he has all this potential,
he's fucked up more than anyone else i know.
but, then again I'VE fucking up more than anyone i know.

Age is our problemI
He let my age do the talking for me,
never listening to what i was really saying.
He noticed this too, only he interperated it in a different way.
Instead of blaming himself, he blamed me,
saying i wasn't being real and that I
wouldn't be able to discover who I truly was, untill I reached an older age.
That I "jumped on the bandwagon, and made choices that i did, simply
to make the older kids think i was cool,
and make them wanna hang out with me"
I personally, find that statement to be complete
and utter bullshit.

To top it all off, he told me all this in 2 instances.
1, while he was drunk.
2. over a facebook message.
talk about a real man.
he later said that he felt awful and tearing me apart
wasn't his intention.
SOMEONE DOESN'T THINK BEFORE HE ACTS.

I don't know anything at all.